To all the ships on the sea and to all the ports. To all my friends, my family and strangers. This is a message and a prayer. The message is that during my trips I found a great truth. I have already found what everybody is looking for… and few find: the person for whom I was born to love. Somebody like me, from Outer Banks county… from the mysterious Atlantic. A person rich in simple values… a person who learnt on his own. A port in which I am always at home. The wind, the problems… or a little death can’t destroy this house. I pray for all the people to know such love and to recover from it. If my prayer is listened to, there won’t be guilt any more, or regrets. Neither anger. Please, God. Amen!

Have you ever been in love? I'm not. I don't know why. A few years ago I always thought I was too young. But when I looked at my peers, I immediately remembered this phrase: “То love all ages yield surrender”. I understood that phrase completely wrong. I thought it was for old people. So here is my story. In my life there was one person, but now he is only in my head, in my dreams, and maybe even in my heart. It was a strange familiarity in the Internet. He wrote me and claimed that his friend was with me in the camp. But it was just an excuse to write to me, I think so. This story is very long and complicated. The fact that I wasn’t be able to reciprocate. We stopped to chat. But fate drove us several times. After two years, after fleeting meetings, I realized that I miss him. But his feelings for me were not the same. I'm so sorry that all time told him: Let's be just friends? And when I heard it from him, I realize what a pain to hear such a response. He still means something to me. But I don't think it's love. Because we were never close (well, you know what I mean). And now he has changed. It was quite different. I may be wrong. I just made this conclusion by looking at the photos. There is no such determination, to write him to ask how he's doing or something else. I'm afraid of. Don't know why, but I'm afraid. Maybe to be rejected. I’m very afraid of.